m0therfucker-of-the-apocalypse:

Lol i literally have to beg you guys for asks like everyday because i’m bored. Ask me something on anon or not and i’ll rate your blog out of 10  :3 

FINALLY UPLOADING THE BVB GIG VIDEO. ;D

m0therfucker-of-the-apocalypse:

Yeah we all went to see bvb in march and i got lazy and was all lol cba uploading but i’m doing it now so yea go watch it when it’s done? youtube link on my blog :3 you might not find it funny but lol we did and yeah i scream A LOT during the clips of the actual gig so try ignore that?:3 

I went to the one in glasgow ahha ;p

Ugh.

The last two days have been shit. I have no idea why, I mean during the day i’ve been feeling okayish i guess it’s night time idk man i just start to hate life and everyone at night time and idek. I’m kinda pissed because I was enjoying being happy and now i dread night time cause i always feel like shit. I mean ugh there’s no particular reason. I should be feeling fucking on top of the world because everything is working out perfectly. I mean my friends are amazing. I’m going out a lot more, I’m trusting people more, I’m starting to accept who I am. I’m starting to see my flaws, acknowledge them and accept them. I’m doing better at school. I’m more motivated. I’m getting somewhere and I’m moving on. I’ve learned not to care about people who don’t care about me & i’ve moved on from last year which was basically the worst year of my life. I mean i should be happy as hell and i am, 90% of the time however recently i just can’t fucking have a genuine smile on my face and it’s annoying me. Tumblr isn’t helping either i guess because all that comes up on my dash is photo’s of self harm and people who think they’re fat and swear to god it’s triggering. I think i’ll be okay tomorrow because i can go to the gym and vent my frustration there but if that doesn’t work idk man. I need to cheer up and as i said i have plenty of reasons to smile 24/7 but i just can’t find it in me. I just don’t feel too great at the moment but i think it shall pass. I’m stronger than i was, i think.